New Videos

Keep an eye out on my YouTube page throughout the day. There are a number of new videos being uploaded of Ian.

And I know that most of you check the blog for Ian, not to read what I have to say. It's OK. I'm a big boy. I can handle the truth.

UPDATE: The videos finished uploading. Check them out!

Emptying

Emotions and what you're going through are sometimes a very difficult thing to put into words. Sometimes I'm not even sure what's going on. Those are times when I think God is doing things behind the scenes that I'm totally ignorant about. Times that require an incredible amount of trust.

And there are times that a song can capture where you're at, what you're feeling. That song came to mind today at the end of my work day, Kevin Prosch's Kiss The Son:

When you've been broken, broken to pieces.
And Your heart begins to faint
'cause you don't understand.
And when there is nothing to rake from the ashes.
And you can't even walk
onto the fields of praise.

But I bow down and kiss the Son.
Oh, and I bow down and kiss the Son.

Let the praise of the Lord be in my mouth.
Let the praise of the Lord be in my mouth.

Well, though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.
Well, though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.
Though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.
Though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.

When the rock falls, falls upon you.
And you get ground to dust
no music for your pain.
You open the windows, the windows of heaven.
And then You opened me
and You crushed me like a rose.

I definitely believe that the last year has been an emptying phase of my life. A time of reflection to examine my heart and for there to be clarity in areas that I questioned God about. A time of encouragement and stretching.

It's been a difficult but rewarding time. With that being said, I hope that this chapter is completed soon. But I don't want to rush it either because I don't want to repeat it. I'm confident and I trust that the work that He has started will be completed.